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DEEP_BLUE


                                              March 21, 2006

The lone car parked across the
street has a parking ticket on
it's windshield, which tells me   Tomorrow is
that it's Tuesday morning.        Dan Leone day.    (But I have
                                                    a radio show
                                                    to do this
  Less than a week out of the                       afternoon.)
  commuting life, and I'm
  already back to my old ways
  of reckoning time.


  There are various ways to think about
  this dot-dash pattern of my existence...

  One is that I work for someone else
  for long enough to acquire some
  capital, and then I begin "investing       And working on
  in myself", and go back to developing      my own ideas.     But for
  new skills.                                Hustling for a    me "big"
                                             big score?        is just
                                                               big enough
  Another way of looking at it, though,                        that I don't
  is that I'm "taking my retirement                            need to
  in installments", rather than doing                          work for
  it at the end of my life...                                  someone
                                                               else again...
     Which brings us to the "Travis McGee"
     character, one of the more famous                     (Though 
     creations of John D. MacDonald.                       that's not  
                                                           really true... 
     I seem to be                                          the real trouble   
     re-reading the       WASTES                           is that I 
     first of these                                        want someting 
     at the moment,                                        besides money.)
     not for the                                           
     first time, but
     for the first
     time in a long     Whose name now seems
     time: "The Deep    embarassingly like
     Blue Good-By".     "The Long Goodbye"
                                        
     It's no            
     exaggeration       
     to say that 
     I was 
     enthralled by 
     these books 
     when I was          IN_A_BLUE_HAZE 
     young teenager. 
 
 
  It's rare for me to re-read a 
  book that I loved and find it 
  fall flat, but this one gets 
  pretty close. 
 
  There are constant bids at 
  serious commentary throughout 
  that seem too shallow to take 
  seriously; it is, to use an 
  overused and abused term: 
  "pretentious".  Overwrought.         Style: there's that staccatto 
  Says things too many times.          rhythm, and excess of 
  Goes on after he's put the           cleverness that now seems like 
  point across.                        a dated sixties affectation. 
 
                                       It reminds of Zelazny's "Lord of 
                                       Light"... not to mention magazine 
                                       ad copy. 
 

  But what I wanted to say,                 
  was that in a lot of ways          And also, I        
  these books brought me             wanted to make              
  back to humanity...                the point that        
                                     MacDonald                       Note: he 
  McGee kills, but                   himself was                     started 
  doesn't like to kill,              quite                           in 
  in fact he finds it                influential:                    1945 
  nauseating, and is                                                 in the 
  inclined to go on for                    We're allowed to cite     pulps, 
  paragraphs talking                       only Hammet, Chandler,    and wrote 
  about the enormity of                    McCain...  but many an    until 
  the act.  He manages                     adventure novel seems     1984... 
  to get across the                        written in MacDonald's 
  *reality* of death.                      voice. 
                                                 
  And myself, when I                       Possibly, MacDonald       
  was thirteen, I                          was ignored because          
  don't think I quite                      of his attempts at               
  got this before         I sometimes      being positive,                  
  reading these           think there      because of his                   
  books, and it might     are a lot of     *earnestness*...   
  have taken me           people who                                        
  longer if I hadn't.     still                MacDonald has his            
                          haven't              Travis McGee                 
  Previously I'd          gotten the           character express            
  been sold on a          word.                a profound distrust          
  kind of "tough                               of earnestness.              
  guy" ideal, a             Monsters                                        
  sneer at the value        faking                    (A point        
  of human life --          humanity.                 MacDonald was           
  or the other guy's                                  sensitive about?    
  life, at any rate.                                  Or perhaps               
                                                      there's         
     Example: I had the                               something more  
     vague thought that                               subtle there:   
     if I wanted to kill                              MacDonald wants        
     someone it would be                              us to see that   
     a good idea to do                                he's not McGee.)   
     it while I was still    C.S. Forrester                             
     legally a minor.        calls this the              On the subject       
                             "callousness of             of "earnestness"     
         Yet another         youth".                     I am afraid that 
         example of the                                  I must mention         
         need to feel           Perhaps it's             Spider Robinson,     
         superior, a            not unusual.             with apologies.       
         holding above.                                                       
                                                            Robinson is one   
                                                            of the few to      
                                                            site MacDonald     
                                                            as an influence.   
                                                                               
                                                            It was perhaps     
                                                            not a good         
                                                            influence.         
                                                          
Now the introductions,                                                         
which I've saved for last:                                
                                                           
Travis McGee calls himself a                               
"salvage consultant": he is a                              
last resort for those who
have been robbed.
   
He goes after the    
thieves, steals back            
what was stolen, and              
returns half the                   
recovered property to               
the original owner.                 
                                     Living 
He works roughly 6 months            by halves?         
on 6 months off, which he 
calls "taking my retirment
in installments", a                         
live-for-the-moment                          
philosophy he rationalizes
by professing to believe  
that his work is too      
dangerous to expect that  
he'll reach old age.      
                                   
He lives on a large houseboat       BRONSON 
berthed in Ft. Lauderdale,               
Florida, which he won in a                        
poker game (a story repeated                   This boat is apparently    
in nearly every story).                        insanely large.        
                                               In the first novel a   
                                               dancer friend of his    
                                               is working on some      
                                               choreography in his    
                                               living room.  Is that  
                                               a joke?                  
                                               
He has doomed relationships with
sensitive, serious women, and
consoles himself with flings with
party girls who are just oh so
shallow, leaving him feeling guilty
and degraded about all this,
because he is of couse not as
shallow and trashy as the party         You can tell they're
girls he manages to force himself       trashy by their
to have sex with.                       southern accents.
   
But that prefunctory             
piece of schtick was                           
actually relatively                                               
unusual for it's time...                                          
                                                     Florida, to me at    
Not only does he feel                                least (and going just 
guilty about killing                                 by reputation) sounds 
people, he feels                                     like a pretty trashy 
degraded by sex with                                 locale: retirees,    
random women.                                        sleazy college kids  
                                                     and obnoxious cops.  
                                                                        
   There's a certain groping                         I'd guess that in    
   here toward a philosophy of                       the early 60s it     
   sex-as-an-expression-of-love,                     still had the glow   
   a notion that there's                             of "vacation          
   supposed to be a spiritually                      paradise" about it...
   uplifiting component to the                                                
   "human sexual act", as opposed                                         
   to the merely "animal".

   Does that sound obvious?
   But check the record:
   I have a feeling it was
   being invented around
   then...

      Previously, the "why
      not fuck around?"        EXCUSES
      question had a
      different answer.



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