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MOTIVATION

                                                         WAR_AND_PEACE

Quoting from Tolstoy's
"War and Peace" (1865-1869):

   I don't know what will happen         'I don't know what will happen
   and don't want to know, and           then.  I can't know, and have
   can't, but if I want this--           no wish to; but if I want
   want glory, want to be known          glory, want to be famous and
   to men, want to be loved by           beloved, it's not my fault
   them, it is not my fault that         that I want it, that's the
   I want it and want nothing but        only thing I care for, the
   that and live only for that.          only thing I live for.  Yes,
   Yes, for that alone!  I shall         the only thing!  I shall never
   never tell any one, but oh            tell anyone, but, oh God, what
   God!  What am I to do if I            am I to do if all I care for is
   love nothing but fame and             fame and the affections of my
   men's love?  Death, wounds,           fellow-men? Death, wounds, the
   the loss of family-- I fear           loss of my family-- nothing
   nothing.  And precious and            holds any terrors for me. And
   dear as many persons are to           precious and dear as many
   me-- father, sister, wife--           people are to me-- father,
   those dearest to me -- yet            sister, wife-- those I
   dreadful and unnatural it             cherish most-- yet dreadful
   seems, I would give them all          and unnatural as it seems, I
   at once for a moment of glory,        would exchange them all
   of triumph over men, of love          immediately for a moment of
   from men I don't know and             glory, of triumph over men, of
   never shall know...                   love from men I don't know and
                                         never shall know ...'



       -- (WC), p.347                             -- (RE), p. 306
                                                     Volume I.

   Chapter XII, Book III,                          Chapter 12, Part III
   Prince Andrew                                   Book One.
                                                   Prince Andrei




     The books he read were chiefly historical, and on
     these he spent a certain sum every year. He was
     collecting, as he said, a serious library, and he made
     it a rule to read through all the books he bought. He
     would sit in his study with a grave air, reading- a
     task he first imposed upon himself as a duty, but
     which afterwards became a habit affording him a
     special kind of pleasure and a consciousness of being
     occupied with serious matters.

          First Epilogue, Chapter VIII, p. 445 (WC, text here GP)
          Nicholas ((? not Pierre? ))


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