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DANGER


                                                           October      1995 
                                                      Rev: ?                
                                                      Rev: December 15, 2022


It's always dangerous making pronouncements about your future.       
A tale of the unexpect (a long "How We Met" story):
                               
                                   
                                           DANGERBABY    

                                   
I had just quit doing a regular radio      
show as a DJ at KZSU (the Stanford         
radio station), so I suddenly had time     
to go and see a lot of live music (and     
a greatly expanded set of ears with        
which to listen to it)...                  
                                           
I rode the train up from Palo Alto to     
San Francisco one Tuesday night to go     
to a Splatter Trio show down in SoMa.     
I had a lot of time to kill, and I        
needed some food, so for no particular    
reason I hiked all the way to North       
Beach, and ate at some random italian     
cafe on Columbus.  I then went over to    
the Cafe Trieste for coffee.              
                                          
There was a woman sitting in the back    
in the corner that I normally sit in,    
and I thought about squeezing in near    
her, but I figured that would just       
make her all paranoid, so I sat down     
at a table in the middle of the room.    
                                          
I sat down with my back to her.  That     
was a policy I'd adopted recently:        
always sit with your back to beautiful    
women.  If you don't do that you're       
always fighting your impulse to stare     
at them, and it's typically just          
really embarrassing.                      
                                          
                                       BACKING_IN


At this point, as I learned later, she was checking me out.
She thought I looked a little like an old friend of hers--      
who used to be a DJ at KZSU.                                    
                                                                
She got up and went to the bathroom so she                     
could see me from all sides (by this time I      
was busy writing something in a small            
notebook, and I didn't see her doing this).      
She says that she was actually thinking about    
asking me if I wanted to go with her to hear     
this band she was interested in, but she gave    
up on the idea, thinking things like "oh, no     
one wants to hear that kind of music."           
                                                 
When I got up to leave, to head over       
to the Hotel Utah, I noticed that she    
had left already.                        
                                             
Over in the Hotel Utah (a funky bar with     
a really oddly shaped performance space      
stuck on the side of it... a great place,    
typically used by beginning punk bands,      
but on Tuedays it was the avant-weird        
"Dark Circle Lounge" series, that night      
featuring the Splatter Trio.                 
                                             
I noticed an interesting woman hanging     
around...  I was trying to figure out      
if she was alone, and then I saw her       
over by the bar talking to some people.    
                                                 
I stuck in a set of neon green foam earplugs,    
and felt self-conscious enough about it to       
let my hair down to hide them.  This helped      
to make a confusing environment a little more    
confusing by blocking some of my peripheral      
vision, but as I was walking by I thought I      
caught a glimpse of her smiling at me.  Later    
I was up in the balcony watching the Splatter    
Trio go at it, and she came over and stood       
next to me.                                      
                                                 
Really this was the Splatter Trio plus two      
(with Graham Connah on keyboards and Dan        
Plonsey on second sax), but the drummer         
really stole the show for me... when the        
band started playing, he was still setting      
up, just casually walking around with a drum    
under his arm, tapping on it occasionally,      
sometimes banging on the part of the drum       
kit that was set up already, then looking       
around for some high hats to attach to          
it... he would drop things sometimes, but he    
always seemed completely relaxed and            
unconcerned about it, because after all,        
dropping things made noise too.                 
                                                
When the performance was                  
over, I seized on the
obvious opening line and       LINES
asked the woman next to me
"Do you know the name of the
drummer in the Splatter
Trio?"  She didn't, but she	     The name of the drummer in the
did name Graham Connah for           Splatter Trio, is of course,
me, and I pointed out Dan            Gino Robair.
Plonsey to her, and in
general it seemed like an            How is it that I'd never
instant *click* to me, we            heard of him before?
just shifted into talking to
each other without any               Actually I had...
awkwardness.
                                     Gino Robair of Rastascan Records,
She said "you were at the            Gino Robair organizer of the Dark
Cafe Trieste earlier, but              Circle Lounge,
you had your hair up" and I          Gino Robair who had performed live
suddenly figured out what              on KZSU with Mandible Chatter...
you have no doubt guessed by         Somehow I'd never connected him
now, that this was the woman         with the Splatter Trio.
I noticed sitting in "my
corner" of the Trieste.  We              It often strikes me that
also talked about the KZSU               I'm walking through life
connection a little bit, and             backwards...
she mentioned that there was
another KZSU DJ at this show                WALKING_BACKWARDS
that I hadn't noticed: she
pointed out Stefan to me.
                               	       (Stefan came over and said in a
                                       very amused tone of voice
                                       "Doom and Raven...").

We set up a date to meet               And yeah, that's the
again there the next night...          name she goes by: Raven.
(the Dark Circle was doing                                     
a three day long                          And no, she's not any of
anniversary special).                     those Ravens that you're    
                                          thinking of.                
                                          
I could keep rolling on this story...        (On the goth scene, Raven
                                              was a *really* common handle
The conversation has continued in             in the early 90s.)
one form or another for years        
now, and doesn't look like it's      
going to stop.                       
                                     
We've got no major problems, and     
barely any minor problems.           
                                     
If I were someone else watching the      
two of us, I suspect I would find us     
pretty nauseating, but many people       
seem to regard us as the Ideal           
Couple (comments like "you give us       
hope" are not at all unusual).           
                                         
                                         
                                         
                                        
                                   

                                                                   
                                Now, when Raven tells her side of     
                                this story, she puts a lot of emphasis     
                                on her great uncertainty in this           
                                situation, and a general feeling of        
                                "what am I doing diving into a             
                                relationship with this guy?  I was         
                                busy staying away from men..."             
                                                                           
                                She tells a story of reluctance-overcome-
                                by-charm or something like that, but 
                                I don't really know what to make of that.
                                Didn't seem that way to me... and I'd 
                                say it was a bit more complicated than that.
                                           
                                          
                                     


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